As per everything I do, my fiancé was there with me every single day, which was a nice change of pace from the usual seeing each other every single day, but now I was on a break seeing her every single day. We did some fun activities together, one of which involved watching the show Severance, which is a superb psychological thriller that I could not recommend enough.
Then I caught up on some reading for my Shakespeare class, and an exhilarating philosophy book called “The Stranger” by Albert Camus; maybe exhilarating is the wrong word for it, it’s very profound and makes you think so if you like to think and don’t feel uncomfortable with the desolate, overwhelming, drowning indifference of the reality of existence… I really recommend it!
Midway through the break, I realized that I had answered wrong which sonnet number was the one presented on the midterm, which led to a mild freakout. Consequently, it guided me to some avoidance behavior like playing some co-op Stardew Valley. During my playthrough, I realized that Haley is the worst character in existence, and I don’t really understand why anyone would go for her. I decided to go after the alcoholic Shane by becoming his enabler by buying him a drink every other day, which was really fun until he ruined it by making really sad comments that forced me to accept the fact that even in this game, alcoholism is very complex and detrimental to a person’s health. It’s a little ironic because we were drinking when that comment happened, and it made us reflect a little bit. Thanks Shane! Ruined a fun night, just kidding, hope you get well buddy (I kept giving him beers).
I spent the last few days reflecting on my last semester at SNC and with my goal of graduating. The school has changed a lot since I joined almost 4 years ago, and I’m grateful for the opportunities it gave me. I can’t say that it changed for the better, or that the change was unavoidable. But living in a reality where constant change is the norm, I can’t be constantly disappointed when it inevitably happens. I just have to be thankful that I knew it in a different way, and for that I’m truly grateful. Now all that’s left is graduating, moving onto true adulthood, and I can’t be certain that I’ll be happy, but I’m hopeful. That’s all anyone can ask for.